Listening to the divine flow of your intuition is a practiced art. Though intuition is a natural process that aligns you with your soul destiny, we have all learned at early ages to cut ourselves off from our soulful truth and listen instead to the beliefs formed in our mind. Our beliefs were the seed thoughts that shaped our ancestors ‘experiences and are often passed down through the generations to energize historical patterns of experience. Beliefs may be well packaged because they often seem to make sense of a seemingly harsh reality. But beliefs are not founded in spiritual realities no matter how polished they may appear.
Intuitive living is a call to live beyond the limits of belief into a flow of spiritual truth. As an adult, to live intuitively will feel like a profound act of courage. Beliefs about who we are, what we can experience, create and have dominate our thoughts, emotions and choices. We often feel a deep nudging from our soul into a direction or simple action that does not support our pervasive belief system. Our soul’s call will never waver. We can numb it, avoid it, deny it or criticize it. God knows, our culture does this regularly. Nonetheless, your soul is not identified with your mind’s ego and will therefore never sacrifice your truth for your belief system.
The mind is a fascinating creation. Because it exists to give your soul the full immersion into a human experience, it fully buys into your limitations and finite resources for living. The ego-mind will present myriad examples of why taking intuitive action is frivolous and how it cannot be trusted. The genius of this human machinery is that the mind is always capable of proving itself right. If you believe you will always have to choose the safe path, I assure you that your reality will reinforce that perception.
To live intuitively means one knows that the ego-mind will battle against all intuitive impulses. To live intuitively means you are fully conscious of your ego and its purpose to create a full human immersion experience including an identity and belief system through which you can experience spirit in human form. But your soul is infinitely more powerful, wise and resourceful than your ego-mind can ever perceive. Therefore, intuitive living is the art of choosing to tune into spirit, align with the divine and allow your spiritual truth to emerge through your senses into your words, thoughts, actions and ultimately your entire life.
Often people ask me if I was intuitive as a child. And yes, I saw energies and multiple dimensions, felt the soulful essence and suffering of others; I had precognitive and telepathic experiences and have had past life recall for as far back as I can remember. Though I had overt interactions with spirit as a teen and even a young adult, it was not until the persistent throbbing of unhealed traumas pulling me out of my slumber and into a union with my soul-self that I began to surrender into a new way of being.
Intuitive living was not an all or nothing experience for me. I had experienced so many traumas from childhood into my early adult life that I developed a dependency on alcohol to sooth the deep ache inside my heart. But reaching outside my soul for comfort proved only to deepen a dependency that could not bring me emotional relief. Over time, I felt more shame, powerlessness and became increasingly isolated from friends and family.
One cold December evening I decided to drink myself into peacefully numb state. As I tossed back one shot of schnapps after another, I realized that alcohol could not do for me what I needed. I dropped my head to my hands and shouted to the elusive source of all-that-is “God, please help me!” It was in that moment that a swirling vortex of golden light appeared in my living room. I rubbed my eyes and stared deeply into the brilliant golden light before me. My whole body became engulfed with a peace that seemed to saturate every cell of my being. And then I heard a soothing voice flowing into my right ear: “We are here for you little one. You are not alone.” Angels were speaking to me and I could hear and see them with perfect clarity. As I peered into the vortex the details sharpened and the Golden Angels inhabiting this energy field made their presence known to me. They were flowing like the shimmering notes of love sung from a God I thought had forsaken me. “Put down the drink,” they said, “You have a disease and it is not your fault. Let us help you now. Do as we suggest and you will be free”. I could feel their love permeating every aspect of my essence. My heart filled with a sensation no drink or earthly experience alone could provide. I placed the drink on the table, dropped my head in tearful awe and thanked them for coming.
These angels led me into a 12-step recovery program through consistent intuitive messages. As I became willing to listen, my angels began providing insight and guidance to help me release my dependency on alcohol by engaging in the program of Alcoholics Anonymous for supportive tools and wisdom. Then they led me to a sensitive and life changing therapist. They guided me to work opportunities and prosperity. They even helped me with simple daily choices as I navigated a whole new experience of living. And though I had to make each choice, one present moment at a time, they held my heart and my hand as I moved from a life of suffering into a loving journey of awakening.
That was more than twenty years ago. And to this day, I begin each morning with a sacred ritual of gratitude for my sobriety and health. Then I tune up, tune in and allow the divine to lead my life.
Through daily practice, my intuition sharpened, my faith in divine presence deepened and I began to heal. I began to hear, see, feel and know the divine helpers who assisted my every step with ever expansive ease. They did not take away any of my life lessons; they only showed me how to move through life aligned with my soul.
I did not and still do not live a perfect intuitive life. I have an ego that still likes to have its way. While resistance may be futile, I have learned that my human evolution and intuitive process is an unfolding, dynamic experience. I have to make a choice each day to attune, align and allow the divine into my life. I engage in practices that support this intention and heal through habits that do not. And even with all the years of living an intuitive life that include angelic sightings, spiritual interventions and mediumship encounters with loved ones – at times I find myself perceiving divine guidance with doubt. Sometimes I still believe that I am being asked to jump off a cliff with no promise of delivery to safety (let alone abundant blessings).
As my mind dances with resistance to new guidance, it conjures images to provide proof of why the next divinely guided step would be a disaster. Practice has helped me know that the ego loves to make its case, no matter how developed one’s soul-self may be. It has helped me navigate the terrain of my ego and compassionately free myself from the clutches of my ego-mind. Each moment I have a choice to listen to the sound arguments presented by my ego and live on the edge of an unfulfilled destiny or step boldly into the seemingly unknown exploration of a spirit-led adventure. I have learned through trial, error and fulfillment that following divine guidance is never really a risk. But life lived through my ego-mind is fraught with limitations, fear and struggle.
Recently a friend shared about a dilemma he was contemplating stating: “I am holding onto a branch, knowing I need to let go. Slowly I move my hand down the branch. I feel fear, knowing all I need to do is release. My hand clings and I cannot let go.” I understood his meaning intimately and offered “the fear is great but if you consider that you are holding onto a branch while being pulled by a river and that the river is the divine itself – then consider what you are releasing yourself into.” Only then can we truly know we are letting go of something that cannot save us for how can anyone go wrong when they flow into the stream of divine consciousness? But the ego-mind will never trust this reality and cling it will to the immeasurable suffering that it perceives as a safety net.
Intuitive living is not a fix for life but it does provide a limitless tool-kit. It allows me to experience life without the struggle against it knowing all the while I have the full power and presence to respond soulfully. At times I still cling to the proverbial branch believing in its power before I then notice my ego, tend to my fearful emotions compassionately and remember that I am ever flowing in the divine when I simply let go. It is a practice; not an event and living this way is the one sure thing that has saved my life both literally and metaphorically.
I now surrender into the intuitive flow of this imperfect journey into conscious presence. I listen, feel, see, notice with the senses of my body and my soul. This processing reaches beyond the comprehension of my mind, far beyond my ancestral inheritance and takes me into the place of transcendent discovery one breath at a time.
